Notes from the Underground Hate Quotes

[Apollon] drove me beyond all patience! He was the bane of my life, the curse laid upon me by Providence. We had been squabbling continually for years, and I hated him. My God, how I hated him! I believe I had never hated anyone in my life as I hated him, especially at some moments. […] He was a pedant, to the most extreme point, the greatest pedant I had met on earth, and with that had a vanity only befitting Alexander of Macedon. He was in love with every button on his coat, every nail on his fingers – absolutely in love with them, and he looked it! In his behaviour to me he was a perfect tyrant. […] My hatred reached such a point that sometimes his very step almost threw me into convulsions. What I loathed particularly was his lisp. […] He maddened me particularly when he read aloud the psalms to himself behind his partition. […] Apollon seemed to me, for some reason, an integral part of that flat, and for seven years I could not turn him away. (2.8.19)

"Will it not be better that she should keep the resentment of the insult forever? Resentment – why, it is purification; it is a most stinging and painful consciousness! Tomorrow I should have defiled her soul and have exhausted her heart, while now the feeling of insult will never die in her heart, and however loathsome the filth awaiting her – the feeling of insult will elevate and purify her ... by hatred ... h'm! (2.10.20)

I dreamed as I sat at home that evening, almost dead with the pain in my soul. Never had I endured such suffering and remorse, yet could there have been the faintest doubt when I ran out from my lodging that I should turn back half-way? I never met Liza again and I have heard nothing of her. I will add, too, that I remained for a long time afterwards pleased with the phrase about the benefit from resentment and hatred in spite of the fact that I almost fell ill from misery. (2.10.22)